Searching, and finding,

The reasons I need you in my life

Honoring and adoring,

The ways you attempt to my everyday life

Asking, not knowing,

Why you tell me false relations,

And cause many complications

 

You lie,

I really don’t know why,

But then you love me,

And I won’t let you go by….

 

Am I stupid,

Am I insane?

Or am I just in love,

And need you by my side everyday?

I don’t have intimation,

Just going about my everyday news

Finding things new about you

 

Thought I knew you well enough,

Thought you’d be honest and faithful,

But now,

I’m finding, the reasons I can’t be with you

 

I’m here, and you’re there,

But still I feel unstoppable

Although I’m not unbreakable,

I still know where I stand.

 

Tenderness, maybe

But to think I’m strong,

I feel week,

You’re testing my actuality,

Grasping me from the very core,

But tonight you’re just another footprint at my very door

 

You may think you have won,

But really it’s your loss

You’re missing out on what’s optimal  

But too blind to see,

You still know you can’t forget me

 

So listen to me,

 

I love you,

But I don’t want you,

I hate you,

But it doesn’t even matter

I’m me and no one else will change that,

So screw you,

Whatever!

It’s funny how you said that you loved me,

It’s funny how I said I loved you too,

What’s wrong with me? Damn, I must have issues to say I was in love with you.

 

I love you,

I love you too boo,

I never want us to separate,

Me either boo bear

 Girl, you’re all I’ve ever wanted,

And boy, you’re the reason I’m living

 

Please! Who are we kidding?

We knew this wasn’t gonna work out,

We knew one of us would find the easy way out.

Yes, fortunately it was you,

And you left me heart broken,

With no glue to put me back together

But now I’m glad,

I couldn’t live knowing that every night; you were out with some hooker,

And I wasn’t the only one sharing your love with you.

Thanks for breaking my heart,

Or maybe you fixed it

 

I just wanted to say thanks,

Because you gave me another reason to wanna live,

Not being with you is good enough for the fact

So here’s all your shit back!

Your pajama pants you told me to wear, along with a pair of your nasty boxers

Oh here’s your hoody with your last name on it,

Baby, why’d you give me something from high school?

I’m not 13 anymore,

I don’t need to wear your name around to show you off,

Believe me; you ain’t that special.

Here’s your shirt that I wore to bed every night,

You must be outta clothes, giving them all away to every girl you get with,

What are you trying to do? Make them feel important? Ha!

You’re lame, get it together kid,

Step it up and be a REAL man,

Or you will just end up being a DEAD man…pshh w/e man

 

Thanks again!!

 

You disrespected me,

You used me,

It feels like you’ve abused me

Tell me why,

You don’t mind, just a little bit of a challenge?

Why do you think you’ll get whatever anyone wants?

Why did you think you could make me fall in love?

And then break my heart,

Make me come undone

Yes you won!

You got everything you ever wanted from me,

Are you happy?

Are you satisfied with what you did to me?

Did you enjoy using me?

Telling me that you loved me,

When right behind your precious eyes, you knew you were lying to me?

Damn, I’ve been put through a horrible relationship again,

Like you put me under a spell, and made me fall hard for you,

But now I know, you were just like the other one.

Exactly the same, in every way!

You fool, I shouldn’t have believed in you, shouldn’t have trusted you,

How could you live knowing that you caused so many girls this amount of pain?

Do you adore making women feel dreadful?

You must think you’re a good entertainer!

But I got news for you, your nothing but a playa, neva will be anything more

So stop trying so hard

 

I wanna give you a chance,

But my heart isn’t healed yet.

 

Here it goes,

See, I was once in love,

Crazy I know,

But it wasn’t just love like people see everyday,

I felt like I was in a fairy tail of some sort, of some kind.

I never thought I’d get so hung up over this one guy,

But my heart went zany,

And I went completely crazy,

I fell so hard for this guy,

I didn’t even once act shy.

It felt like love at first site,

Until the day he decided to crush my heart,

Cheated on me, and so much more

 

See, now I realize he’s just too thickheaded,

He said he wanted me,

Said he loved me,

What a deceiving thing to say to me,

But I believed him,

How foolish am I? How ridiculous is he?

 

I know I’ve finally realized that he’s obscene,

But I’m still so in love with him,

Even after he’s been so mean

I don’t know what’s wrong with me,

Could somebody please help me!

I feel broken, in love, damaged, confused, not wanted, rejected,

And I don’t have a damn clue!

 

Somehow I’m confused,

Maybe you could help me out

 

See you still tell me you love me,

When you’re walking around with the girl who calls you “hers”

Then suddenly you say you ain’t with her,

You’re just holding her hand,

And getting her laid.

 

Boy, tell me why I’m so confused,

Cuz I don’t got a damn clue.

 

See, you follow me around places every time you see me

Boy, don’t you get it,

You don’t amuse me,

You’re just a headache to me

That’s all you are anymore

You can’t please me no more.

 

You tell me you still care,

Even when you’re with her

Sometimes I get caught up in all the memories,

And actually believe what you say, but I know it’s not true anyways

But you keep telling me the same thing.

Then you switch it around

Telling your new girl I’m a liar,

That you didn’t say anything at all, that you didn’t do anything wrong

 

You know, except break my heart,

Lie, sneak, cheat and sit on your ass and drink,

Can’t believe she’d put up with you,

While she sits their,

Shoving her face,

Not paying attention to her kid.

While you’re their

Smoking weed, in front of her child,

And f***** all over the place,

But it’s ok,

It seems to be that you’re perfect for each other

 

You’re nothing to me anymore

And I won’t put up with your lies anymore

So stop following me,

And do me a favor,

Next time you see me, look the other way,

As if you’ve never even seen me before,

Cuz I won’t put up with getting stepped on anymore!

 

All you have in life now is being a stoner,

And f****** that whore

And finally I realized,

That I DON’T NEED YOU ANYMORE!

 

I’ve realized, you will never be the same person you use to be,

When you use to be with me

You’ll never have a chance with a girl like me again,

Cuz boy believe me,

Theirs no one as good as me,

No one who will care about you so much,

No one who will give you as much love, as I did

Cuz boy,

When you look in the mirror,

And finally realize,

You opened your eyes when you were with me,

You’ll see who you wanna be, who wanna be with,

But that’s too bad,

Cuz I wont be their for you anyways

 

You weren’t there to pick up my broken pieces,

So why would I do it for you?

Well boy, I just wouldn’t,

So don’t count on it.

 

Cuz I’m sick of lies,

And I’m done with you acting like a child,

And that’s all you are in my eyes.