OK! PPL I NEEED ADVICE!!!! Please help!

Im goin crazy right now.. Im sitting in class and i cant focus. I have been stressin since last month when my ex and i broke up! We have been BEST FRIENDS for 5 years! 5 years!! and we finally decided to take it to the next level in September of 2008! ok? Well he was in college in Rochester… and i lived 2 hours away.. So we didnt see eachother that often, we started fighting and shit.. and we broke up in January! (which sucked) I really love this guy, and he loves me too. So now hes living back where i live… he’s been here for almost a month now…and ive seen him once!! ONCE!! and maybe talked to him on the phone like 10 times! I really wanna get back with him.. bc he means the world to me.. and hes an awesomee person… but idk what to do! im sick of waiting!! What shhould i do?????

All the lies,

You’re consuming my mind,

I guess I was blind,

You’d never stop for me anyways.

   As much as you said you wanted me,

As much as you said you loved me,

I could feel the grip pulling us away.

I could see the tension in your eyes,

And I thought you wanted this,

You had me fooled,

I tried to hold on,

But you just didn’t want to.

You showed no reaction,

You showed no love,

It’s like you have no heart,

Why’d you try to get in my mind?

You tried to make me believe you’d change,

But you fucked up…What else is new?

Thanks for the lying, the bullshit, drama,

I couldn’t take it.

As much as I tried to be happy,

Everyone could see me fallin

As much as I said you satisfied me,

I knew in my heart I wasn’t pleased,

But this crazy image kept poppin in my head,

And it confused me…

I guess I pictured something good in my mind,

But in reality, you were nothing good for me

So just forget me,

Don’t come running back to me,

I’ll never do this again,

It was all a mistake…All pretend.

                   (steve)

I’m on the verge of breaking completely…

You’ve shattered every piece left in my lonesome heart.

These tears fallin from my eyes won’t stop shedding,

And I’m beginning to lose myself again…

  I was afraid of this…

            My heart doesn’t seem to be beating as fast anymore,

And every day feels like another year has passed.

Oh, boy…why couldn’t we make this last?

Cuz now I’m just broken, I’m lonely, and no-one understands

I’m trying to be happy,

But images of you and I keep comin’ back,

All the things we shared,

And now I’m seeing what my life lacks…

   My life lacks YOU.

It lacks US,  being together forever,

Just like you said before,

What’s the matter?

Why’d you change your mind?

I feel blind,

Like I can’t see past you,

I see nobody but you

You’re on my mind 24/7

It’s like my dreams are always about you, Every night

I can’t stop thinking of you…